Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Oh Wow!

Cannot believe how long it has been since I have posted... seriously nuts.

I do look at your blogs regularly and often have posts swimming in my head. While in the middle of my sabbatical I attempted to analyze why I was having trouble posting...  One contributor is that I haven't wanted to rub this pregnancy in the faces of those still in trenches. Another is... every time I would think of posting... someone I care about in the blogosphere was getting bad news.  :(  Thinking of each of you and am hoping my posts don't hurt you even more. *Big hugs*

As for an update... a long overdue update...

Still here and still pregnant! 39 weeks and 2 days today. Cannot believe we are getting close to the end of this chapter. Baby girl is measuring good (5 pounds, 15 ounces at our 36 week ultrasound) which should put her around 7.5 pounds if born soon. She is head down and giving me nightly aches and pains. At my appointment last Thursday I was 1.5cm dilated and 50% effaced. Hopefully this has progressed some by now. 

Pregnancy as a whole has been amazing. I am still super active and mobile. Walking 3 miles a day and still doing my prenatal yoga. I find that movement helps with the aches and pains. I have gained 17 pounds total as of this morning which I am pleased with. I started out the pregnancy about 10-15 pounds heavier then my norm (after 3 ivf cycles) so definitely wanted to keep the weight gain under control through eating healthy and not giving in to crazy cravings. Sleeping has been a big issue as of late... Either I can't fall asleep or I wake up in the middle of the night, wide awake. I really am not able to nap either so that has been tough. I have been taking a Unisom (with doctor approval) every 4 days or so to try get a good nights sleep and it really helps. I sleep so great those nights!

Still on my blood thinners for the MTHFR clotting disorder. Switched from Lovenox to Heparin at 37 weeks in preparation for delivery (there is no reversal for Lovenox). The two shots a day are annoying but it is what it is. Can't believe I am still giving myself shots. Lol. I have flashbacks of my IVF cycles every time I load the syringe.

Emotionally I have been having a hard time this week. The anticipation is killing me. It actually isn't even about meeting her or wanting her here right now... more to do with worrying about this all getting taken away from me. We are so close, I can taste it... what if it all went away today? What if it went sideways at this point? I just want her out and safe. Where my body can't fail her. Not sure why I am re-starting the "what if" game at this point but just trying to not let my anxiety get the best of me.

Can't wait to show you pics of the finished nursery and some maternity photos I had taken! Wanted to get an initial update out first. I miss you all!

I leave you with a few recent belly pics (from a few days ago). This thing has gotten huge!   :) 




11 comments:

  1. So happy for you! I'm getting ready to finally pull the trigger and do IVF even though every part of my being wants to run away.

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  2. You look great!! I'm glad your pregnancy has gone so well. I spent the last month of my pregnancy terrified that something would go wrong. I couldn't even allow myself to imagine the babies being born because I was so scared of losing them, so you are not alone in those feelings!! Good luck and I hope she decides to make an appearance soon!! Can't wait to hear her birth story!!

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  3. So good to get a post from you. I was wondering how your pregnancy was going. Glad to hear it was happy and healthy and you're at the finish line. Hope you have a smooth and easy birthing time.

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  4. You look awesome! I just stopped by last week to see if you had any updates!! Your so close to meeting your little one!!! So excited for you! ;) glad your back!

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  5. Oh, I am so glad to see how close you are and that you are doing well. We missed you! Can't wait to see more!

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  6. So happy that everything is going well. I have worried about you from time to time! Little girls are so special! I understand the not posting because of others still in the trenches. It made me not want to post for a long time but now that I am posting again I will much better about it all. I also have the wake up in the middle of the night wide awake! It is very frustrating at times!

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  7. Glad to see you are back! You look amazing, I can't believe how soon your little one will be here.

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  8. Love, love, love, you are beautiful!!! I am so glad you are doing great!!! I'm so glad to hear that she is growing perfectly!!! xoxoxxxx

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  9. So glad to hear that everything is going well! I was actually just thinking of you. (Coffeegal from the IVF boards ;))

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  10. If you get this message, I would really like to ask you some questions about PGD. I can't find your emial address on your blog. Can you please email me at dreamingofdimples@gmail.com? If you have the time, if not...no worries.

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