Still sad. So unlike myself actually. Usually I am so happy go lucky. Are we jaded forever after our journey? Meh. I know... in my heart... somewhere deep inside there... that this will all be a distant memory one day... when we have our baby in our arms... I hope.
I have a lot to write about tomorrow. Just need to get my spirits up first. Adel and I had a couple consultations (second opinions) with different clinics this week and I need to process it through writing about it. I think this may be part of my sadness today. This is all just so much work... requires such big decisions... with such financial implications... and what if *knocks on wood* it doesn't work again. *Sigh*
Anyway, I'm rambling. I know. Lol
I found this video a while ago, called "Tears and Hope - Infertility Awareness Project". I always think of it when I am sad... since it states so well what we go through as infertiles. It's a beautiful video but really will hit home to many of you. I am unable to embed the video here (since I am not that savvy) but here is the link:
Sorry for the sadness tonight, will be better tomorrow. :)
I'm sorry this sadness just hangs over us like a storm cloud some days. Hoping that today brings a little more sunshine. I started watching the video you posted and starting crying (at work)! :) Maybe I better watch this one tonight at home... Praying for brighter days ahead.
ReplyDeleteHi Denise - I came home and just watched this video... wow. I have no words to describe it. A year ago today was our retrieval day for IVF #1... so bittersweet for us. I couldn't stop crying as this video played and every single word resonated in my heart.
ReplyDeleteI'm entertaining the idea of sending this video out to some friends and family who don't know the details of our struggles. I've debated doing that for quite some time and I can't think of a better way than this.
Thank you, thank you, thank you for posting it. I needed it. Wishing I could give you a big hug today. xoxo
Still Hoping - I still cry every time I see the video.
ReplyDeleteI also sent this out to a few close friends and family in an effort to garner support and some sense of understanding. It is such a powerful message. I hope it helps!
I am glad I posted it! I never know what people have seen or haven't seen in their searches... but it has always meant so much to me.
*Big Hugs* back to you. :)
I have had so many days where I'm just a little sad and then other days when I'm really sad and other days when I'm doing okay. It's so tough. Hang in there.
ReplyDeleteSadness comes and goes. You need to give yourself permission to be sad and not apologize for it - if the IF community has taught me anything it is that. We are here to support your feelings whatever they are. Hoping today is a happier one!
ReplyDeleteOh my! I just saw the video and LOVE IT! Going to post it to my blog too! Thanks for sharing!
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing the video. It truly does express the longing, sorrow and desire of getting pregnant when it isn't so easy. Good luck with the clinics. We too are dealing with financial stuff for a new home loan. Ugh!
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